Growing up in my small, conservative Canadian town, my upbringing was heavily influenced by the old-fashioned beliefs of my parents and the community. While there was love and protection, there was also a prescribed way of being, a set of "acceptable" emotions that I was allowed to express.
Each time I felt something outside these boundaries, I was lost in a labyrinth of confusion. The self-doubt and insecurity took roots, creating ripples that would follow me into my adulthood. The beliefs that were instilled in me influenced my choices, partners, and every step of my life's journey, leading me to a path of emotional distress and strained relationships.
The gender rules were another layer of complexity. In the eyes of my conservative town, certain emotions were not "manly" or "lady-like." This distorted view added to my emotional turmoil. I found myself caught in a generational jigsaw puzzle, trying to fit pieces of my parents' beliefs with my growing understanding of the world, creating an internal conflict that led to much heartache and misunderstanding.
However, my story isn't just about the struggles. It's about the journey of change and growth. As I matured, I realized the importance of emotional health. I learned that feelings aren't right or wrong - they exist, and they need to be acknowledged, not suppressed. This revelation became my compass, guiding me out of the maze and onto a path of healing.
Today, as I look back on my journey, I see the influence of emotional suppression on my mental health. But more importantly, I see the potential for change. Through my story, I hope to impact the older generation in my town and beyond, those who are raising grandchildren and may not fully understand the nuances of emotional health and diversity issues.
By sharing my journey, I aim to tread lightly, but truthfully. This isn't about blaming or pointing fingers, nor is it about pushing a feminist agenda. It's about heartfelt storytelling that seeks to build bridges between generations, to foster understanding and respect for all emotions.
The journey is personal, it's mine. But it's also a call to action for all parents, educators, and community members. Let's create an environment where emotions are understood and respected, not suppressed. Let's foster emotional health and respect for diversity in our children, laying the foundation for a more empathetic and understanding future generation.